ColubrineDeuce

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Ayy 

Thanks all.

Update as to creativity, I have quite a bit of visions, not sure if I will make them manifest tho.

Photography has taken a real backseat, I went to the park, and was at first sad I didn't have it with me, but looking back toward the end of the journey, I was glad I wasn't lugging that heavy ass thing around. Zoe and I had a good time, and she wasn't having to dodge me taking pics of her. lol

Took some pics of a my falling down barn and its contents I am cleaning out of it, and who knows, I might upload some of those, tho they are more journalistic.

Took some landscape photos as well, my friend, one of my best friends during the high school years and after, he passed at 40 and instead of going to the viewing, I went to the hill just above the funeral home, I climbed up there, and had a moment of peace, though I physically exhausted myself getting up there, and was shaking so bad and a mess that I didn't attend the showing.

RIP Patrick Galloway.

Yesterday my dog died, I might have considered him my best friend, Gizmo, he was a great pal of mine, which I grew closer to over the years. He was a Chihuahua kind of mix.

I had also lost my other dog Brodie earlier this year in January, was perhaps the best dog I ever had. Daschunds are known good pets, and I understand why now.

Been thinking of re-doing some videos, I think I want to get adobe after effects, as it has a special video stabilization feature to which puts a black screen around the video and can center whatever item you highlight. I don't think Vegas has that.
I could re-edit my favorites from the past that weren't steady, and perhaps even remix audio.

Zoe was trying to talk me into getting back into drawing, which I just might. not sure whether to work on my tablet skills or just get back to pencil drawing. Quite a few things I see that I might want to draw, but not sure that I can handle the learning curve or the time it will take to get to that point.

been also getting some ideas about remixing some songs.. I always had visions of changing pitch and speed of some songs over the years and my soundcloud has seen some of those, and I have pretty decent stats over there, which is surprising.
I know the name says DJ bass ackwards, but I don't consider myself a DJ, that is more of sarcasm. The name in itself comes from one of my grandpas old sayings in that he would pronounce ass backwards as bass ackwards.
When I was making mixes for dance parties and trying to share with other djs for collaboration ideas that is how my soundcloud was born. Though I toyed with the idea, I haven't really ever taken any of that seriously.
But that doesn't mean I wont put things up there I want to hear.
I was messing around with ableton for a while, but oh the money and learning curve to get started...

Been dying to pick up musical instruments but just haven't had the drive once I do, and also I don't have an amp for my electrics, nor is my acoustic in working order really. It has had some neck problems.

Health wise, been about 2 month since a gout attack, and still just not doing too well at all despite that. Very low energy, but man I distrust doctors, though I need one bad. Need to sort out medical card and its just been tough to get there as family shares one car, and eh...soon though...especially with my friend dying of a heart attack man, I got to take my shit more seriously if I want to be around to see my daughter get older.
Been looking at roller blades. Haven't bladed in a good while but they are so fun and not so hard on the knees. Harder to find size 21.5 double wide though. lol Used seems to be in my price range, any ideas or advice?

So much to do. A bit overwhelmed.

Sorry for rambling on here, but I don't journal much, nor even write. 
Matter of fact, I kind of cringe at most of my past work.
I have changed my mind a bout quite a bit as of the last few years, and I just....tend to want to rely on logic and reason more...is all that I can say.

I most likely wont change my old works, for they are footprints, but..... I am just not too happy with it.

I have some perceptual issues, always have. It is one of those blessing and a cruse kinds of things in that I can be very innovative, or creative, but I have no real grounding and I have a natural opposition to established order. Like I might know what is right, but do something completely different. In the same way, when I observe something, I most likely am observing exactly the opposite of that which is there, which is wrong. I just can't get over how wrong I have been in life as a whole. That which is just glaring obvious, I miss. I just don't get the simplest of things, while at the same time I can easily grasp some of the most abstract things at times.
I often am very passionate about the wrongest of things and it drives me nuts.
So now in the moment I know this and I just observe myself, while at the same time just muting myself. I try to not take sides or have opinions, or at the very least I try to not express them.  I have always been dyslexic, but like most people that suffer from it, their brain learns to correct it so that one can be productive, but problem is, is that it doesn't always work, I guess is a way that I might say that.

I am most likely to be pissed about the stupidest of things, and miss the best of things, right in front of me.

Its like i might try to help, but I go about it all the wrong way, or try to help the wrong aspect, or say precisely the worst thing, though that can't be measured ofc, but I am a ruiner, one way or the other.
But I can't say this as the soul focus, I do, and have done a lot of good, but that is kind of like a incidental, it wasn't because of my effort, if that makes sense.

These weird anti social tendencies... most my friends I haven't seen in ages, and these friends were friends, which felt sorry for me or we wouldn't have been friends. There have been exceptions, but it seems like if people honestly like me, I don't want anything to do with them, and that is so fucked up man.

So I just keep people at a distance. I see myself as the problem. Moreso now than ever. Much of my art had been to try to bridge that gap. The intense neediness is repelling.
If you look though my past work, you might see this pattern.

I studied a psuedo science, the Myers briggs test, and found myself to be an INFP, it kind of helped me see these tendencies and accept and deal with them a bit. But I am 38 now, I have lived a while, and now I kind of have trouble dealing with seeing how most of my reactions, judgements, and actions have been because of ignorance, and man I don't even know.

There is still a great beauty to it all, so I just try to find that, instead of getting lost in the lack.

So, not sure of the direction these days. But, getting there nonetheless.

Still working around the home trying to help my family live better, and putting love in that food.

Who knows what is next.

Much love,
Chris

Hi all!

Happy Holidays to you and yours!

Been creative the last couple of days, made a couple of videos 

One was from something I had been wanting to do for a while, which was I basically just clipped the best part of a Daft Punk song "touch" and looped it, and put it to some hexosis visuals. I had been wanting to do something with that clip for a couple of years since I did it originally, and soundcloud took the remix down. My friend was wanting to hear it again and it inspired me to put this together;


I put up a video of a funny moment in one of my World of Tanks moments


Which I have been spending quite a bit of my time playing WOT, and doing extra things with it, like joining a clan MOVE which is pretty laid back. I have been trying to get into video production and perhaps even streaming at some point.

I made a logo and have been sticking it all over my screenshots and videos and such;



Here are the links should you want to keep up with those creative efforts and personality I am building;
Follow me on Twitter twitter.com/Butcher_Bird_44
Like me on Facebook www.facebook.com/Butcher_Bird_…
Watch me on twitch www.twitch.tv/butcher_bird_44/…
WOT Profile worldoftanks.com/community/acc…
live.warthunder.com/user/Butch…

Haven't been doing much with my camera. Still in need of a lens, as the focus hasn't been grabbing. None of my family wants pictures took of them much anyway, and I just feel so uncomfortable with a camera in my hands the little bit I have been going out.
I did however shoot some at my daughters Xmas play if you wanted to see a video you can see it here;
www.facebook.com/ColubrineDeuc…

Been keeping my gout under control for the most part, though I haven't been feeling very well and lose energy really quick. So, while I have got further remodeling the bathroom, and I am doing pretty good as a homemmaker, things have been pretty limited as far as being productive outside the computer and daily tasks. Keeping my family fed, my daughter and pets loved, and enjoying life as much as possible have been my areas of strength lately.

While financially limited, really having a lot to be thankful for this holiday season. I have enough to get exactly what my daughter wants, and not a bunch of useless crap to make her feel loved through presents, but rather gifts of presence, and acceptance. We still have so much fun even if it is a trip to the grocery store.

She has been well, though much like me, having trouble with friends, but keeping creative and drawing up a storm still yet. I have been working with her on expressing her feelings a good bit lately, as she is prone to be a little bottle with a tightly closed lid. She has been doing good at school, though her grades have come down a bit, and struggles with math and homework especially. Real spacee at times, forgetting things, and clumsy as could be, and she is dealing pretty well, though it gets hard at times.

Moms hand healed up pretty well after the surgery and she has been doing ok but not feeling well, and low on energy. She hasn't gotten back into exercising yet, as she is waiting to hear from the Doctor. Her bones are very brittle and her osteoperosis has gotten to a advanced stage. She might retire here in a little bit, but doesn't want to, because 1k a month would be super hard, though she will be teaching some. I like having her close to be able to help her through these times.

Well, rambled enough for now. So many projects so little time. lol

I hope you have a high quality holiday!

Much love,
Chris

Thanks everyone for checking out my page and all.

Been laid up for 6 days now with a gout flare up that has had me bound to my chair for a bit. This is the second flare this month, first time for a while, as I was managing it pretty well. But it as most likely butterfingers that did it this time, and Kit Kats the first time. I keep forgetting my triggers, though I don't remember butterfingers doing it before. Been using the walker and getting downstairs once a day at least.

Which that is pretty much the reason I got out of photography professionally. I just never know when, and when it happens it is tough knowing the downtime.

I have shot some here and there, but I am having trouble deciding as to what to put up. I participated in a thread about post a favorite deviation for every year you been on DA and it was overlooked, while everyone else got feedback and I asked again later and I just have to guess my picks were that bad. It surely affected me, though I have a idea of what I am after, and this vision I have been working toward, I don't go out of my way to make my work stand out. I try to do it well. I try to tell my story. I try to share the beauty that perhaps isn't appreciated as much. I tend to shoot more like a journalist, than say a fashion photographer.

I know I have a lot of work to do to get better, but also some kind of attention thing where I tend to only get so good and switch to something else I know nothing about. lol

So i don't really know what to post anymore here. It just isn't good, in perhaps a way that this community might enjoy?

I built up a good following, but most of that was around 2011 and before, its been so long.....

Still just not up for it much. I think I will put up some of my more recent works and just let them sit there. What the heck? Not sure what I expect.

I was doing some war Thunder skins for planes,    But my graphics card died, and I am sending it back for repair, it could be a while. But I sure enjoyed that, it was like painting model airplanes, something I had done as a kid and sparingly as an adult. Then you get to fly them against other humans almost like RC planes. The whole process has been forcing me to learn parts of Photoshop I had always wondered about and likewise, researching the airplanes history have really been a lot of fun!


I also created a separate Facebook for my gamer profile www.facebook.com/Butcher_Bird_… Mainly so that I can interact with game related pages without it clogging my main feed, but a I share skins, military related content, replays, or what have you as content through there. I created a youtube with that moniker too in order for the same idea, and was thinking of doing videos related to gaming through that.


I did a couple of videos I had backlogged in idea land This one was one of those auto plays on facebook while I was listening to one of my favorite bands OM and I thought they synced oddly. So I put it together, and em...not all that happy with it, but I saw that through. Something is happening with when I slow videos down, perhaps it is the render or something, but I haven't figured it out.


I out this video together mainly because i was going to avoid sending a huge file of pictures, and so that my friend could pick if she wanted me to send any so that she could edit them herself, and synced them to the beat of a pretty cool dubstep song. That was one of the best nights of my life and career as a photographer, pure magic.


I mixed another song, soundcloud.com/dj-bass-ackward… with the intent of putting that aforementioned show as some kind of slideshow of the whole night, but I kind of got put off, as my friend, well, we just never talked after that, and there is a kind of sorrow over that whole situation. Me having to leave my fam because of health reasons, and other reasons, just too many to mention, that I never really revisited that to finish it, but the song is still good. Might still do that, just waiting for the right time perhaps....


I had been writing on and off, and started up a wordpress, mainly to interact with a friend on there. Here is my latest writing colubrinedeuce.wordpress.com/2…


Well, that rounds it out about for now. its been a tough month. Mom fell and broke her thumb and had to have surgery. Our car broke down and it cost quite a bit, even after I spent about 4 days troubleshooting and working on it. This is my second go at the gout thing.  October tends to be my favorite month besides May. But this one... wowee wowee. The walker does me ok with my one trip downstairs each day, but it isn't a very good tri pod. lol

Marking a nice milestone today as I hit 35K!



I want to thank each and everyone of you that take the time to check out my stuff, fav, comment, and add to collections.

I have been getting back into DA slowly but surely, and keeping creative.

Recently I joined as a contributor to a new group LightStreaks, a new group that features light painting. If you could join up and help us build up a nice experience for those of us with a love of light painting!

I put together a folder of my light paintings I have submitted here colubrinedeuce.deviantart.com/…

I did a little edit and remix to a spectacular video on my youtube.


Numbers over there look like 108K views 177 subs. I have a bit more vision and intend on trying to put out something every week over there if you haven't already followed, please do.

I have been adding some work to my Facebook page. I try to alternate work between all my outlets, so that there is unique uploads to each. Numbers over there are 746 likes reaching about 43 over the last few days.
www.facebook.com/TophuPhoto/ph…

New work up on my persona facebook, follow me there too please
www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbi…

Soundcloud continues to cook. 116 followers 1695 plays
Here is a track I recently remixed about a highly contested topic lately.
soundcloud.com/dj-bass-ackward…

TUMBLR active again as of late
New work here
colubrinedeuce.tumblr.com/post…


I have been itching to use Instagram again, but don't have mobile. Do any of you use bluestacks of have an alternative? I am scared bluestacks will wreck my PC.


August.... the regress of summer....I love cold weather now more than ever....looking forward to it... Zoe is going into 5th grade....
I had this horrible tooth thing and still haven't finished off the bathroom, but might get some done today... So many regular life issue keep getting in the way... But i had the tooth pulled so yay! Still finishing off antibiotics.
Still haven't been looking for a steady job yet either.

Maybe I could set up a patreon and people could help me do what I am already doing? (laughs)

One can dream....

A great deal of weatherizing to be done before the big cold temps creep up sooner than they should. I wonder if ice age or something.....

Thanks everyone.

Feature coming soon of my favorite works.

Much love

Been so long since I did a feature! I saw that it let me thumb even though I wasn't premium.

So, lets see how this looks, and if it works.

Check out some recent highlights from some of my favorite artists!






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